I often wonder … why that what I want to do I do not do… why what I want to do I do not do. The apostle Paul pondered that same thought.
I know to do right- but…
The doing right is not really about doing wrong… I am a fairly decent and somewhat good person... (At least I can rationalize that thought for the moment) I surely don’t intentionally do wrong. Instead I just don’t do ….
When does inaction or lack of action become wrong?
I am not talking just the action of doing- but the entire thought process of what do I allow my thoughts to focus on. Whatever is right and just and true those are the things I need to focus on. Not focusing on the confusion of the world. Not focusing on choices of others- not focusing on the fear of the future that permeates the fiber of many around me...but instead focusing on what so ever is right and just and true. I need to think on these things.
Lately I have not done that. My focus has been not God –ward. It has been instead focused on what I can see…what I can touch and what I can feel. These have been what I have focused on. I have allowed fear and trepidation to erode my peace- my joy my confidence and my hope. I cannot see the future and I surely most definitely cannot change the future by worrying about it. Instead I am called to look heavenward… I am called to set my eyes on things above.
It is not always easy to look up. Gravity pulls my head down. Shame does too. No matter. Today I am choosing to look up… regardless of what I see touch and feel.
Today… choosing to live with hope.
Today.
Tomorrow will have enough challenges of its own. I cannot live tomorrow – until I have lived the today that is mine.
Today… I choose to live… looking up!
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2 comments:
Loved your blog for today thanks for sharing. I can relate. You write really well Nancy! Worry also robs me of strength for the day. I don't have any to waste. I have been asking Him to teach me to abide. What He means to abide, not someone elses idea, but HIS. I love it when he shows me himself, the revelation. When he shows me, it becomes LIFE in me. ;) I love HIS LIFE IN ME!!
I was telling your son that you are one of the Beautiful woman I know. Things you probably thought nothing of, meant the world to me. You are a very thoughtful person and I have been blessed by you at times. Thanks for being such a sweet lady. ;) Sending a Hug to ya, Keri
Some times I have to stop and listen to myself talking..is it faith or fear that is speaking. And remember that God is large and in charge, and I'm not. Worry, is like rocking in a rocking chair, thinking we're getting some where. Worry is a waste of time. Trusting is a act of faith. When I don't trust as I should, I ask God to help me with that too.
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